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08:42pm 11/06/2003
  1) The singular most boring question: what is your name? Steven.
(2) Are you happy with it? Yeah, I guess. It's a pretty plain name, but around here it implies royalty and that's something I'm not. Heh.
(3) Are you named after anyone? My father. Or more aptly, Mr. Sperm Donor.

(5) Your screenname: Er. I'm not an AIM person.
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? No. There are FAR too many Stevens in my family. I am the 39th. Trust me. We need NO MORE.
(7) Then what would you name your children? I like Sam. Or Amber. (And you thought I was Gothic! Shush!)
(8)If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? "Hello, my name is Crap-for-brains"
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? Friends? What?
(10) Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? Um... no. Not at all, actually.
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? My last name IS famous. So no.

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BASICS
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(12) Your sex: Male
(13) Straight/gay/bi? I'm an arrow, babe.
(14) Single? Yes, and I'll remain that way until I feel myself stable enough to unleash upon another mortal soul.
(15) Want to be? Yes. Well, no, because I wish I was stable enough to merit a girlfriend or even a wife someday. But I'm not, and that's that.
(16) Your birthdate: May 15, 1960 (And I'm not 43! YES! Just be confused.)
(17) Your age: Just turned 18, which is how I finally got this posh, ever-so-slightly-damp pad.
(18) Age you act: I've never thought about it.
(19) Age you wish you were: Don't have a preference.
(20) Your height: Six-foot-three.
(21) The color of your eyes: Electric/ice blue, they say.
(22) Happy with it? It scares people sometimes, which is GREAT. I don't even need contacts to scare people! All-RIIIGHT! ::beats face in, wanders off::
(23) The color of your hair: I dye it black, but it's really... almost white. Once again, shut up. I prefer black hair.
(24) Happy with it? I wish it were black naturally.
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? Ambidextrous, but I was originally a lefty.
(26) Your living arrangement? With myself. Nobody else would put up with me, or to be more accurate, I don't think I'd put up with them.
(27) Your family: Depends in what sense. Legally? Half the fucking Empire. In that cozy, lovey-dovey sense? Not at all.
(28) Have any pets? I have a cat named Anarchy. Grumpy old bastard.
(29) What's your job: Clerk at the local convenience joint. They say I'm handy if someone comes in to rob them, which has happened a few times. ::cracks knuckles::
(30) Piercings? Oh, quite a few. Two in each eyebrow; two in the cartilage of each ear and three in each earlobe.
(31) Tattoos? One of the Japanese character kun (overcoming obstacles) on my right shoulder.
(32) Obsessions? Being prepared for anything. I must be able to overcome.
(33) Addictions? Adrenaline, I'd guess.
(35) Do you speak another language? I speak English, which to a lot of you is your first language, but mine was Rikki Tikki. And I also speak with a bit of an accent.
(36) Have a favourite quote? I probably do, but of course, I can't bring it to mind the only time it ever matters. Although I do like "Oh no! Somebody set us up the bomb!" a lot.
(37) Do you have a webpage? Shit no. This is enough, more than enough.

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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? I live in the future.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Only if they deserve it. Most people don't.
(40) Do you have any secrets? Heh, yeah.
(41) Do you hate yourself? No, I don't hate myself. But I am pretty discouraged about my life sometimes. I had little control over it.
(42) Do you like your handwriting? It's nice, easy block-print. I can't write in cursive worth shit, though.
(43) Do you have any bad habits? Of course I do. Shit... I'm full of 'em.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? "Oh, sir, you're so strong!" Heh heh. It's funny getting called "sir" when you look like a little street hooligan. How come I'm the only one who uses the word "hooligan" these days? Jesus christ.
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? "Rules of Getting The Shit Beat Out Of You On A Daily Basis, And Then Being An Ass". Then again, I'm pretty fucking uncreative.
(46) What's your biggest fear? My biggest personal fear is... well, I don't really know, although I'm a little scared of remaining uneducated for the rest of my life. My biggest fear for everyone else is that Prince My-Shit-Don't-Stink is going to go apeshit on the people.
(47) Can you sing? I get told that I can (Sometimes I start singing at work, I usually don't notice it until someone mentions it). I really don't care for my voice. Too girly.
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? Hell no. I'm cool enough looking as it is. I like the way I look.
(49) Are you a loner? Heh. Most of the time, but I don't object to being around people, should the situation come up. I'm not THAT Gothic, and that angst shit pisses me off. Yeah, I angst too, but I try not to let it affect other people. If someone's going to try and hang out with me, then goddamn, they're going to have a good time regardless of how much I hate my life. Shitheads do otherwise.
(50) What are your no. 1 priorities in life? Having intelligence that can be applied in the real world... being able to protect people I care about. Although those people don't exist yet.
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? I'd probably have some friendly competition with me, if I were someone else.
(52) Are you a daredevil? 'S what I live for. Adrenaline.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Sometimes I'm scared that I'm going to really, really hurt someone that doesn't deserve it because they piss me off or disrespect things they don't understand (which would piss me off, too). I know that I have that capacity. I don't want to give up that capacity. I needed that edge once and I'll fucking need it again, I'm sure. Things are always changing. Never stay the same.
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? Agressive. No question.
(55) Have you got a journal? Yeah, or I wouldn't be taking this shitty survey. Goddamn, these things are made specifically FOR journals... I'll stop expounding on how stupid this question is now.
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? Greatest strength? Resilience. Greatest weakness? Not knowing when to give up. They go hand in hand.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Huh. I don't know. I kind of like myself the way I am.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. You can only drink out of one. Which one would you drink of? Love. I don't need creativity I don't have, and I don't need beauty, either. Don't want to heal over the scars I earned just to get rid of the ones I never asked for.
(59) How do you vent? By playing the violin or sax- it goes in stages. If I'm sad, I play the violin, if I'm angry, I play the sax, and if I'm really fucking angry, I resort back to the violin for weird-ass music time. Then, if I'm angrier than that, I go beat the shit out of the perpetrator.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? Yeah. Well, kind of. I've learned to come to terms with things in a manner that can only be described as "self-destructive"- What I usually do is go "okay, here's another thing that hurts me in life that I can't change", I don't sulk, then I go throw myself off a building. I haven't died yet. That confuses the shit out of me. Then again, it's gotten to the point that my life is liveable- so now when I throw myself off buildings, it's really just for the rush as opposed to me wanting to die. When your life is liveable, there's no reason to want to die. It's just bullshit.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Um. No. I had little enough control over my life that I really had no option but to do things the way I did them.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? Shit no, but it's made me who I am and hell, I like who I am.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Fight for yourself. Protect yourself. Don't let default social placements (Like "this is your mother, this is your father, by default they love you") catch you off guard. If someone hurts you, they're no different from anyone else. Don't take shit from someone just because they've got a title.
(64) What do you like the most about your body? ... That's pretty vain. I like my hair and my eyes... I don't know. I guess I've got a nice chest. (You don't know, but I'm smiling quietly and flexing as we speak.)
(65) And least? My skin is pitted in places and stretched strange- mostly around the scars, and it bothers me more than the scars do.
(66) Do you think you are good looking? I'm one hot motherfucker. With the exception that I don't fuck mothers. Unless they're hot. Um.
(67) Are you confident? I've made it this far, I see no reason not to be confident in my abilities.
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? Muh... I don't think there is one that fits me.
(69) Do people know how you feel? Nah, and that's fine.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? Some people think I'm a trash-talking asshole. I am. Some people think I'm a nice guy who helps old crippled people across the street. I am. Some people think I'm really a geeky guy in a very lucky, hard outer shell. I'm that, too. I'm just about everything everyone says I am, unless they say I'm weak. Then they're fucking stupid as shit.

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DO YOU...
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(71) Smoke? Nah. I've had a cigar or two before, when I get really upset, but... it hasn't helped me at all, so I've decided not to waste my money.
(72) Do drugs? I used to. Stupid shit that fucks with your head. Lost my edge. Got hurt. I don't need that shit.
(73) Read the newspaper? Religiously. I've got to know what's going on.
(74) Pray? No. Nothing to pray to. That "New Age, Ancient" shit that revolves around Pretty Boy creeps the shit out of me. There is no god. And I am going to go on believing that until I see one, face-to-face, and it proves it's a fucking god.
(75) Go to church? A long time ago. I was really good friends with this youth pastor, he tried to keep me safe and sane. Then my father found out about him, and he dissapeared. I lost faith in the church and everything that goes along with it, so here I am. Atheist because it's easier.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? I might if I used AIM. But I don't. Not an AIM guy. It feels like I'm wasting time I could better be using... to do some other, more appealing kind of nothing.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? I don't have any.
(78) Take walks in the rain? I used to live in the rain, so I'm pretty used to it. It never lost it's effect on me, though. I love the rain.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? Only to warn them before I kick the everloving shit out of them.
(80) Drive? I don't have a car, but I've driven a few other people's cars, which was nice.
(81) Like to drive fast? Hell yes. It's the only way to get around.

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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice? It's strange... I have a deep voice to speak in, but the voice I "sing" in isn't deep at all... I need to figure out how to sing normally.
(83) Hurt yourself? Intentionally? Uh-huh. Quite a few times in quite a few ways. It's stupid.
(84) Been out of the country? Yeah. Shit, a lot when I was younger. Not anymore, I don't have anywhere to go now.
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? Yeah. I'm hearty like that.
(86) Had sex? No. < insert dissapointed, frustrated emoticon here >
(87) Been unfaithful? Never had a girl to be unfaithful to, but I don't see myself being unfaithful anyway. Do I see her being unfaithful to me? Yes.
(88) Been in love? Nah.
(89) Done drugs? Yeah.
(90) Gone skinny dipping? I used to take my baths in the lake at Victory Park, late at night. Does that count?
(91) Had a medical emergency? Um. Yes. I've been declared clinically dead fifteen times. I'm a lucky bastard, I tell you what.
(92) Had a surgery? Almost as many times as they've told people I was dead.
(93) Ran away from home? ::snort::
(94) Played strip poker? Never had the opportunity, not sure I would even if I had the chance.
(95) Gotten beaten up? Well... yes and no. Gotten beaten? Yes. Gotten beaten up by local thugs? Hell no. I kick their asses. They should know better than to fuck with me by now.
(96) Beaten someone up? Shit yes. Story of my life.
(97) Been picked on? Yeah, back in school. The black hair threw them for a loop, most of the kids were blonde. But my combination of ice colored eyes and almost white hair creeped people out as a kid, so black was really preferrable.
(98) Been on stage? Yeah. Some orchestra things, some band things, but public speaking is really where I shine. (Aren't I humble.)
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? Um... no. Not ever, at all, and I really hope it never happens.
(100) Slept outdoors? Yeah, for extended periods of time.
(101) Thought about suicide? Heh. Yeah.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? For school? No. School never got that hard.
(103) If yes, what is your record? Not Applicable.
(104) Gone one day without food? Gone many days without food.
(105) Talked on the phone all night? I don't even own a phone.
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first(moms and daddys don't count)? There were a few sleepovers at the school where I did that.
(107) Slept all day? Now that I have a place to stay, that's what I do sometimes on my days off. Other times I just go prowling.
(108) Killed someone? You know, I'm not sure. That's what happens when you leave someone bleeding in an alley in the middle of the night. You don't know whether they lived or not, and quite frankly, if you're me, you don't care.
(109) Made out with a stranger? ... No. I don't think I would, either.
(110) Had sex with a stranger? Haven't had sex at all.
(111) Thought you're going crazy? I am crazy! What the hell are you talking about, shitface? Don't tell me the shit I do is normal in your world.
(112) Kissed the same sex? No.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? Definitely not.
(114) Been betrayed? Haven't we all.
(115) Had a dream that came true? A few times, and it's been sufficiently creepy.
(116) Broken the law? Shit yes. Gravity particularly. "I fought the law, and the law won."
(117) Met a famous person? Hah. Yes. Yes I have. Famous people who are now dead, even.
(118) Masturbated? Yeah. It's not a big deal.
(119) Masturbated with something other then your hand? Uh... I don't think there's anything else I could masturbate with, and if there is, I'm going to stay far, far away from it.
(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? Not that I know about.
(121) On purpose? Mmmno.
(122) Had sex? GOD HOW MANY TIMES MUST YOU SHOVE IT IN MY FACE? NO! NO I HAVE NOT! SHIT!
(123) With more then 1 person? Not Applicable.
(124) Threesome? NOT Applicable.
(125) Orgy? Not Applicable, assmunch.
(126) Whip cream? No, I don't whip cream. I buy it already whipped.
(127) Bondage? I wear a lot of shit on a daily basis that looks like bondage gear, but I don't think I'd actually be into it sexually. I'd want my girl to be able to move when being fucked, thank you very much.
(128) Whipped/gotten whipped? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAH
(129) Blindfolded? Yes.
(130) Tied someone up/been tied up? I've been tied up.

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(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Yeah. "Hey, national news service, my father, Mr. Big Important Guy, beats the shit out of me with tar-covered whips." Oops.
(146) Stolen anything? Yeah. Sometimes a person's just got to eat.
(147) Been on radio/tv? Yeah, but not recently.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit? A few times. I dominate mosh pits.
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? Many, many times. But after you have them enough times, they kind of... I don't know. The feeling fades and you have to have something more extreme happen to you to trigger any kind of response.
(150) Considered religious vocation? Nope.
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance? Never had the opportunity, but I think if I were to get it, I'd make sure as hell they had no reason to complain. We Crossroads are notoriously good. Only reason I'm proud to be part of that shit family.
(152) Bungee jumped? Yeah, it's got it's own dimension of difference from just jumping off buildings. When you bungee jump, you get yanked back up, and it's much more gut-wrenching than the falling. I always wondered if I'd smack into the supports on the way up.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? A few times.

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CLOTHES and other fashion shit
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(154) Shoe brand? No clue. They're studded boots with fire on the toe. Some shit in another language.
(155) Brand of clothing? No preference. I just like to look like a badass. As long as it helps me achieve that goal, I like it.
(156) Cologne/perfume? No. I just prefer to be clean, so I smell natural.
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? I usually wear a black shirt, my bracers, and military-issue pants tucked into my boots for work. I'm glad I work in a shitty neighborhood, it's acceptable there, and a few times they've told me to look "more intimidating".
(158) How about parties? I don't go to parties. Parties are shitty. (Aren't I mature.)
(159) Wear hats? My hair is too big for hats.
(160) Judge other people by their clothing? Sometimes. I judged Pretty Boy on his clothes and I was then suprised by his bizarre ability to kick my ass. I've been far less judgemental of people in preppy clothes ever since that happened. Also, sometime I'm going to get him into a fair fight where he doesn't use fucked up magic power shit. I mean, I might be physically stronger than him, a better fighter, too, but he's got powers. What bullshit.
(161) Wear make-up? I wear black eyeliner, for that oh-so-angstygoth look.
(162) Favourite place to shop? I don't shop enough to have a favorite place to shop. My favorite place to steal from is Argent.
(163) Favourite article of clothing? My fire trenchcoat. Coolest fucking thing EVER.
(164) Are you trendy? Not particularly. I wear whatever the fuck I want to, and if it's in style, fine. If it's not, fine.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? I did wear a uniform to school. Our uniforms were pretty badass.

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BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets? Um... yes. Shithead.
(167) Miracles? I'm still alive, aren't I?
(168) Astrology? No, although I have noticed that sometimes, people's personalities really do fit in with their astrological sign.
(169) Magic? I didn't, but then Pretty Boy had to go and exist to prove me wrong.
(170) God? Psh. No.
(171) Satan? No.
(172) Santa? Never have.
(173) Ghosts? There were some suspicious characters around when I was a child.
(174) Luck? Yeah.
(175) Love at first sight? I think it's possible to decide that you love someone at first sight. However, if you think to yourself "I could have stumbled onto someone better", or you're not willing to deal with their problems, then it'll never work.
(176) Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? Yeah. Without good, there's nothing to compare bad to.
(177) Witches? I used to have some Wiccan friends, but I didn't believe like they did.
(178) Easter bunny? Does anyone ever believe in the Easter Bunny? Jesus.
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Sure it is. It'd help if you had supernatural powers to aid you in finding the right person right off the bat, though, because otherwise, being unfaithful might be good for you.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Shit no. There's nothing at the end of the rainbow but water.
(181) Do you wish on stars? I have in moments of weakness. Of course, nothing came out of it.

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DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? No. I don't believe in Heaven or Hell. It's the easy way out for too many people. Blame all your acts in poor judgement on a Devil and attribute your goodness to service of a God.
(183) Do you think God has a gender? No.
(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? In very fundamental, basic ways. Yes.
(185) Do you believe in organized religion? How many ways can you ask that question? The answer is still no.
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? I'm honestly unsure.

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AMIGOS
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? If I had any friends, I might.
(188) Who is your best friend? ...
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? Pretty Boy with his magical powers. Damn him, he shouldn't know shit about me.
(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Don't stick your nose in shit you don't care about.
(191) Your favourite inside joke? You know, I don't think I have any of those.
(192) Thing you're picked on most about? Some of the family members used to think I was pretty shitty looking. It was mostly the hair.
(193) Who's your longest known friend? Fox. He's not around now, though.
(194) Newest? None.
(195) Shyest? Among Fox and I, it was I.
(196) Funniest? Depends on your tastes. I was the tactful one, he was the guy who's fucking hilarious if you're drunk.
(197) Sweetest? Er. Me.
(198) Closest? ... This is getting repetitive. Fox.

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(199) Weirdest? Shit.
(200) Smartest? Ah... Fox was pretty smart, but that whole "substance abuse" thing really threw him off.
(201) Ditziest? Neither of us were ditzy. He was shitfaced most of the time, but never ditzy.
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? I really do miss Fox. I hear he died in the Musthorn Invasion, so I won't see an older him around here.
(203) Last person you talked to online? I don't talk online. This is about as personal as it gets.
(204) Who do you talk to most online? ...
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? I don't own a phone.
(206) Who do you trust most? Me.
(207) Who listens to your problems? Anarchy, but he doesn't listen well. He kinda just flips his tail at me and wanders behind the fridge.
(208) Who do you fight most with? Not any friends.
(209) Who's the nicest? Fox was definitely a lot "nicer" than I could ever be, so he got along with girls really well. But once they saw him drunk, they usually got tired of him.
(210) Who's the most outgoing? Since I only had one friend, it's always going to be Fox.
(211) Who's the best singer? Fox couldn't sing worth shit. So I guess it's me by default.
(212) Who's on your shit-list? Anyone who fucks with me that I don't somehow feel sorry for.
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? I said it before, and I'll say it again. Straight as an arrow.
(214) Who's your second family? Anarchy. I'm not sure he counts.
(215) Do you always feel understood? I think if I knew anyone, they'd probably understand me. But I don't really know anyone, so I can't say.
(216) Who's the loudest friend? Fox was louder'n shit.
(217) Do you trust others easily? Nobody to trust.

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(219) Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: ... There's no answer to that question.
(220) Do your friends know you? Shit.
(221) Friend that lives farthest away: Fox lives back in 1976. I miss him, but there's not much use complaining.

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LOVE, and all that
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(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? No. I have no experience here, so I feel no fear of not meeting any standards.
(223) Do you remember your first love? Hasn't happened yet.
(224) Still love him/her? Not Applicable.
(225) Do you consider love a mistake? No. Real love is never a mistake. Even if it doesn't turn out in the end, you can say that one person you had met in this whole bout of existence loved you, and you loved her. And that would make everything worthwhile. Everything.
(226) What do you find romantic? I don't like romance. It's just not my thing. Seems fake.
(227) Turn-on? I like smartassed girls. Not smartassed to the point of being rude, but that quiet, stabbing wit. I love that. But if she looks like a beached whale, even that's not going to turn me on.
(228) Turn-off? Bimbos, women that think the world's got to revolve around them. I went to school all my life with those girls. No more.
(229) First kiss? I kissed Amanda Porter (the then-famous, now-dead journalist) on a field trip when I was in seventh grade. Got in a lot of trouble for it, but Miss Porter didn't mind.
(231) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? Shit. That's never happened.
(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? Blind dates? No. I'm not doing that. I'm not going to date someone I don't already have a strong friendship with.
(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? I've never cared. If I want to go out with a girl, I'm not a pussy. I'll ask. If she says no, that's life.
(235) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? Uh... no.
(236) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? That's a hard question to answer. Whores say yes. School said no. I get a lot of catcalls from whores when I'm walking home from the convenience store, but so does every male who looks older than fourteen.
(237) What is best about the opposite sex? I can't really say.
(238) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? Petty, bitter cruelty.
(245) Do you read porn? It's one of the few things I spend any cash on. I've got quite the collection. It's a good walk to any quality porn, though, so walking through the streets with a bunch of porn at 1 in the morning has caused me some issues.
(246) Read the articles? Yeah. Except the "articles" the girls in the magazine write. They're never articles, they're always things like "I like oral sex!" and that's really a turn-off that anyone would ever write an article where they say that. I don't care if it's porn.
(247) Just the pics? I have a preference for pictorals.
(248) What's the last present someone gave you? My high school band director gave me the sax I have now. I'm glad I had it with me when I... ended up here.
(257) Are you in love? Hell no.
(258) Do you consider your significant other hot? Jesus, no, I don't have one, but if I did, I bet I'd find her pretty hot.
(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? Take a look. Think about maybe drawing it later on.

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THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
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(267) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? Not really. I guess it would be okay.
(268) If you did experience that for one day, what would you do? If I knew it was just a day, I'd go a-mischief making. Fuck with people.
(269) What do you love most about the other gender? Ah... hasn't this already been asked?
(270) What do you dislike most? I already answered this one, too. This quiz is fucking repetitive, but I'm taking it so I can't complain.
(271) What do you understand least about the opposite sex? Why someone would try SO HARD, throw away all their good qualities to be liked, not even loved, just liked.
(272) Honestly, what do you notice first in the opposite sex? I notice faces and hair, shoulder width. Not anything particular, just the general upper-torso/head area.

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(273) What is your fave possession? It comes to a three-way tie between my coat, my violin, and my sax.
(274) What physical, tangible possession do you want most? A diploma. A certificate saying that I'd passed the bar exam. A certificate saying that "I AM THE MAN" when it comes to being an attorney.
(275) How badly do you want it? It's what I'm living for. That and the hope that I'll love someone someday, make their life a good one.
(276) Have you ever seen The Exorcist? No. I just know the split-pea soup jokes.
(277) How long did it take for you to understand why the last question is in this section? E=MCshithead		  
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11:12pm 16/12/2002
  IT

1. Is there anything in particular, that you can say rather right off the bat, that you hate about the world?

Um, well, I guess people that don't know about something they disrespect. Like your goverment or something, whatever big evil authority figure you choose. Don't disrespect something until you understand it, and THEN feel fucking free to.

2. Throw out some examples of the music you willingly listen to.

Rammstein. Mannheim Steamroller. Um... well. Gruh. Jazz.

3. What was one of the best things about your youth/ what was one of the worst things?

My youth? It's still hanging on. But other than that, you really don't want to fucking know. Seriously, you don't.

4. Imagine the most interesting person you?ve ever met. Briefly describe their character while keeping them nameless.

Hum... he's a violent man, young, but eerily similar to someone else I know... an older man, not bitter, but agressive without real reason, mentally unstable. But this man I speak of is in a position of power. What will happen to the world as we know it?

5. What is the best example of ?perfection? that you can think of?

Rain when you sit on the roof, pounding on your face, but not quite flooding the eyes. Perfection.

6. In what way do you believe you?re misunderstood?

Oh, that's ironic.

7. What is your favorite store?

Muh... I don't shop a whole lot.

8. What is one of the strongest opinions you hold? (a powerful stand that you take)

Don't reproduce unless you can support what you've produced. Take into consideration that child before you produce it out of selfishness. The mother is nothing when she provides you nothing but pain. What is it like when your mother does not care when there is no milk, no butter, no food, no friends, no love? What is it to you? She doesn't see when you bleed.

9. Who is a person most loyal to you?

Myself. Ever read Ayn Rand?

10. What is the greatest thing you would sacrifice to find real love?

Well, my life would be worthless to give for a pleasure of life itself. And life and love are nothing without reason, without a mind. And I could not keep a person happy without a livelihood, as I would be a worthless person. Really, I don't think I'm ready for love yet.

11. What turned out to be a useful course you took in school?

Huh... boxing. And band.

12. Describe the town you?re in; what it was like growing up; how you feel about that place.

Big place. I love cities, big, capitalist hubs of individualism.

13. Explain one of the most surprising actions you?ve ever taken.

Jumped off roofs. Quite a few times, actually.

14. When was your life most out of control?

A year previous to now.

15. One of the most valuable things you own, whether it be monetary or not. Real or conceptual.

Saxophone, violin, fire coat.

16. What would you like to learn more about?

The engineering and productive sciences.

17. What would you be good at doing?

Beating people up. Writing essays and speeches.

18. Who in life have you felt the strongest need to protect?

My sister, my country- not so much recently, but I used to care. Don't know why, don't now. Silly patriotism ruins everything.

19. What is the strictest a parent should be?

I know nothing of parenting but that you should be honest, and care for your child.

20. What is one of the cruelest things anyone has ever said to you?

Left me alone at complete and utter random, reasoning shat in the wind.

21. Talk about one of the most powerful or bizarre dreams that you remember having.

That I was the lead violinist in a symphony and that I had a twin of myself... a prince. He hated me for being a musician and broke my violin.

22. Support your argument for or against capital punishment.

For. Because some people need to die. Or because society naturally has a carnal desire to see people die.

23. Is there any crime from history or specific historic movement in general that fascinates you?

France France Revolution: Death Mix

24. What is the worst punishment you?ve ever had to endure?

Heh heh...

25. What was the weakest you?ve ever been?

::shrug:: When I love someone I am strongest. When they leave, I am nothing.

26. When do you have the strongest ability to concentrate?

When I'm pissed.

27. What is the poorest you?ve ever been?

Ahh... last year, I'd say.

28. What have you been ignorant about in your life?

Peace.

29. What is the best kind of life to live?

A life full of experiences; a life that spans the spectrum of good and evil, pleasure and suffering.

30. When was the last time you laughed really hard?

I do that routinely.

31. What is the hardest thing to forgive?

Lack of reason.

32. What part of day to day life requires the most patience?

Breathing.

33. What is the one thing you?d most like to be forgiven for?

Being a burden on society in general. Wishing for things I could not ever have.

34. What non-monetary thing in life do you most wish to receive?

Capitalism.

35. Tell a joke. Any joke.

Jesus walks into a hotel with three nails and looks at the manager, and asks: "Hey, can you put me up for the night?" From the Crow. A Gothic cliche, practically, but if you push past that, it was a good movie in my opinion.

36. Any free advice?

Don't have sex with drunk men on the street. WHORES! THE LOT OF YOU!

37. How do you feel about the atmosphere around you most of the time?

Homey. Maybe a little musty. I guess it's good, it's home.

38. Are there any nicknames, numbers of symbols that you value?

I value 39.

39. Do you think about death?

But of course.

40. What makes someone smart?

... Objectivity and the ability to think in abstracts.		  
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05:23am 27/09/2002
  Guh.

Where has my life gone?		  
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05:03pm 21/08/2002
  Today's definitely been interesting. I sat around and fucked with my violin, err...

I lied. It wasn't interesting.		  
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